How’re you doing? I hope you’re doing well!
Today’s post is going to be about a little factarino that I usually never talk about. I try not to think about it because it makes me feel like I’m an asshole.
I am not a good leader. Group projects for me have always been a burden and I always try not to lead to group. I like to think that I’m above average creative and so I do contribute to the group but there has not been one time when I have genuinely looked at a group project and thought, “wow I really like it”. Usually all my group projects are pretty generic and we have to squish all levels of art skills and knowledge into one and in the end it just looks like a huge mess on a paper.
But Riya, if you have so many problems with the project, why don’t you just lead the group and make a better project? Here’s why-
Cause I’m the fucking Satan. I have a guilty conscious and I hate being rude to people but if I am the leader if a group project, you best believe I’ll be the bossiest person ever. If I am ever given the responsibility of something, I go into overdrive and put my 110% into making it look like a masterpiece.
I will block anyone and everyone out of the creative process and the project would work literally just how I want it to be. I don’t care if you grandma died or if you are not good at art, If I want my borders to be flawless, I want them to be flawless.
Group projects are supposed to be team work but under my ‘leadership’ they just end up with me being bossy as all hell and everyone else acting like my slaves. If I’m the leader, I will not stop remaking and correcting the project until I love it. It usually means that if someone isn’t creative enough for the project, I’ll rip them to pieces until I get what I want. And that means that everyone hates me.
Now there are two sides to this. Even though I practically suck the life out of everyone else, I can say for sure, the project would be BOMB. If everything goes according to plan, it would be the masterpiece I want it to be.
But at the end of the day, it’s not team work if everyone is not happy with the work. And so I always sit in the corner unless someone tells me to do something and then I procrastinate it until last minute and submit the average looking project because hey, no one is going to remember the project but they are going to remember me. I’d rather be friendly than productive. Riya Out!